At this moment, I so wish I wasn't so invested in football. It's a hell of a lot more painful than joyful.

Part of me says I need to delve into other areas so that a day/week/month/year isn't tarnished by what my footy club does. The other part of me is thankful for a distraction from a pretty difficult year.

I think what hurts most is we were 19 points up and had them on the ropes. Then we just... Rolled over. I'm not sure how that's possible? I've never seen anything like it from halfway through the third to the final second. Hell, take out the last quarter if you want, the capitulation in the third was horrifying.

I'm not sure if I'll have the year off from posting on here or use the forum to cope. It's a weird feeling at the moment.