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It happened today.
At 0.12, I cracked it. The sight of our premiership assault being finished before it began. I was embarassed and upset, as were all those around me, except an older gent behind me, who with his Footscray beanie, was very calm. I said something along the lines of "this team always finds a way to break your heart. For nearly 30 years, this is all i can remember". To which he responded very calmly to me, "well it's been 53 years for me and this always happens. Once you accept that this club will always do it to you, you wont get angry as you are getting".
So i thought about this while we played pathetically. I was thinking about all the bulldogs people i'd come across who i thought were really negative and consigned to a dim fate, and that i thought it was just overly sensetive negativity. But the gent was right, be it in pre-lim finals when we've had opportunities, when Melbourne beat us a few years back in r.21 or today, this club just finds ways to break the hearts of members. And with that realisation and discussions, i realised i am too now one of these people consigned to fate. Sometimes you go through life and you can't put your finger on an event or time when things changed for you, when attitiudes or relationships changed. Today, 18 minutes into the second quarter, was the day when i went from footy eternal optimist to resigned to eing heart broken - with the result sealing the change.
That said, i will keep paying my membership for life in he hope that things will one day change. God i hope i don't spend another few decades is this abyss, like all the members before me.
So i thought about this while we played pathetically. I was thinking about all the bulldogs people i'd come across who i thought were really negative and consigned to a dim fate, and that i thought it was just overly sensetive negativity. But the gent was right, be it in pre-lim finals when we've had opportunities, when Melbourne beat us a few years back in r.21 or today, this club just finds ways to break the hearts of members. And with that realisation and discussions, i realised i am too now one of these people consigned to fate. Sometimes you go through life and you can't put your finger on an event or time when things changed for you, when attitiudes or relationships changed. Today, 18 minutes into the second quarter, was the day when i went from footy eternal optimist to resigned to eing heart broken - with the result sealing the change.
That said, i will keep paying my membership for life in he hope that things will one day change. God i hope i don't spend another few decades is this abyss, like all the members before me.
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